We were driving along an interstate highway on a February day, just the two of us. I have no recollection of where we were headed or whether it was sunny or overcast, but I remember being grateful for the heater that kept the chill away from his bones. He felt the cold more keenly than I did, so I purposely set it warmer than I would have liked. I drove no faster than the speed limit and kept to the right lane, passing cars sparingly and using my blinker as I had been taught. I gently pointed out each approaching rest stop in case he hadn’t noticed the road signs–he often needed to stop a while to stretch his legs. Our trip was a leisurely, comfortable one with conversation that flowed around moments of intermittent silence–the kinds of pauses whose durations are not discernable between two people who are at ease with one another.
I remember making a mental note of how bleak the landscape seemed as we passed mile after mile of leafless tree limbs, skeletal foliage, and ice-encrusted rocks. It was at that exact moment he said it: “Who would have thought there could be so many shades of brown?”
His casual observation caught me by surprise. He could not have known what I had been thinking just a moment before, and the very coincidence of it seemed like an unintended rebuke for allowing myself to sink into negative space. His comment tugged at my better nature. I was seeing “bleakness” while he was marveling at the “many shades of brown.” He had chosen to share this with me at exactly the moment that I could see nothing but lifelessness. Could this be an example of the Universe using a serendipitous collision of two mindsets to teach me a lesson?
The lesson was not lost on me. Within an instant, the snowless winterscape became a panoply of possibility. Different shades of brown emerged and moments later, a subtler assortment of browns made themselves known to me–each vibrant in its own right, worthy of being given its own name and place in Nature’s crayon box.
Grey-brown tree limbs reached up to finger the wind as green-brown grass lay flattened, resting. Tanned-brown cattail heads stood stalwart against an onslaught of cold. Purple-brown berry vines bowed in gentle tangles of repose against a millennian backdrop of black-brown rock. Russet-brown leaves huddled along the roadside edges, chasing the cars as they passed. What had seemed lifeless and bleak just moments before became fully alive and transformed by a change of mindset and a willingness to see beyond the surface.
I’ve thought about all the ways my father transformed my life without even knowing he had done so. I never shared with him how his off-hand comment about “the many shades of brown” in winter affected me. That one moment in time tripped a reset button in my mind and heart, opening my eyes to a world of beauty which had always been there. It was hidden in plain sight along the interstate, waiting for me to be ready to see it one cold winter day.

Beautiful story and memory….
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